Archive for February 2016

Changing Our Lives Forever

Monday, February 29, 2016

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We had planned this pregnancy for years. First there was the general talking around the subject, then the purchasing of earthyhealthysupergoodforyou prenatal vitamins (we are Berkeleyans, after all), although I didn't start taking them for another few months. Still, we weren't quite ready but I kept on taking those vitamins for about a year. We thought it could happen quickly, so we took a carefree approach. It wasn't until 8 or so months after that, to which my OB replied, "Right on schedule," but by then I had gone to the crazy place. Where you are counting your days post ovulation (I knew that you may not be able to find out until day 10, but maybe we'll try to test on day 8 just in case) and those cheapy test strips are arriving at your doorstep in bulk.

So about a year and 8 months later, 10 days post ovulation, I ran what had become my usual routine during the latter half of the month- roll out of bed and pee in a tiny cup, dipped a stick while making a mental note: we were down to about 5 more of those test strips, would need to place an order for another shipment.

I left the test on its wrapper and went off to check email.

While I was distracting myself with The Daily Skimm, next to the control dye, a thin line, the faintest shade of pink, bloomed.

I stared at the line. Was it just wishful thinking? I had peed on so, so many sticks. I brought it by the bathroom window and tried to squint at it from all the angles. Trying to figure out if this was a real line.

Okay. Yes.

I called my husband.

"There's a line," I said. "A line. On The Test."

"A line," he repeated. "A Line On The Test."

He turned to his producer. "There's A Line On The Test."

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I kept testing, using up the last 5 strips, every day afterwards to be sure that line continued to get darker.

I thought I would be excited, happy. Relieved at least. This was a very much wanted baby that was planned for meticulously, after much discussion about logistics and theoretical parenting techniques, and implanted into a body hopped up on vitamins.

My first reaction was shock. And then a sinking realization that we had just changed our lives forever.

On Personal Connection

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Hello! It's been a while. A few new things have been happening on my end..

I used to be pretty vague in previous blogs, when posting about personal things and skirted topics like relationships, convictions, and kept it to business related topics. Pretty sparkly things and photos.

It didn't feel necessary to write about super personal matters when it felt like they just got lost in the blogosphere.  There were plenty of authentic voices and it just didn't seem necessary to enter the fray.

The landscape has since changed. (And hell, maybe I've changed.) People are making a living blogging about products, writing reviews, and taking in ad revenue. Which is amazing! It's income for those who need to work remotely, giving power to those who want to either supplement their income or for moms who need to be at home. The flip side of that though? A huge influx of grossly overproduced blogs that display so much "perfection", it's hard to see the person behind it all.

Yet didn't we all start blogging for that personal connection?

Sharing great products or telling people about specials is something that I still love to do with my friends. A couple weeks ago, I discovered LuLaRoe and immediately texted one of my best friends, who I just knew would be just as excited about their buttery soft leggings in fun, wild prints.

She promptly bought two pairs.

And on a more personal note, I've also run into some issues and struggles with my pregnancy that I think would be helpful for those in the same boat! Posts on that to come.

My meandering point is this: I'm coming back.

Another huge source of inspiration is that my brother has gotten really into blogging. We have completely different styles and personalities but it's been fun to see what pops up on his. Turns out, a love for instantaneous self publishing runs in our blood! If you do pop over to check it out, I love his "Top Posts" that you'll find on the right hand side. Some interesting/practical topics.

Until next time, friends.